Three years ago to the day, this was written on a much quieter private blog, where readers had to be invited and go through a sign in process to read and respond to my words. I shared with them the struggle to keep going with the blog. Their words and responses reminded me that I was not alone and to keep going.
I am in a similar, yet different, place, these days. I am able invite a larger audience in ~ you have been invited to the conversation, Dear Reader ~ yet, it is still big, scary, and risky. I still hear the voices that tell me to quit. They whisper that it is too dangerous to risk, too much to venture into the unknown, and it is ~alone.
But I am not alone! Thank you all for joining me on the journey. Enjoy this peek into the past and bear witness with me that I have grown, and am continuing to grow, through the struggle.
If you are reading this, it is because you were personally invited and chose to jump through extra hoops to join the conversation of my life.
You know the risk it is for me to put anything out there.
You know the bigness of my story.
I struggle to do things that bring me personal joy or fulfillment.
I don’t risk well.
I write asking for prayer that my heart would believe truth and be strengthened in the struggle. Because I am struggling right now with situations that God knows and the Spirit can intercede for. I don’t need to disclose particulars.
But I want to react and shut down and disengage.
I am receiving positive feedback on my public blog, yet that is the first thing the voice in my head says to stop.
And I am not going to just because life is hard. Because it will always be hard.
I will always need prayer.
Thanks for listening, caring, and loving me through it.