The wicked run away when no one is chasing them, but the godly are as bold as lions.
Thursday is poetry reading day, and it was just right to have only one chapter this morning. Proverbs 28. I had a field trip to Carter Mountain Orchard with my youngest and a full pick-up schedule upon returning. There was a symphonic band concert in the evening.
I knew whatever word came up, today’s page would have to be done quickly.
There it was in the first verse. I even had a picture of a lion in mind that I wanted to use, but I wasn’t sure how it would go together. I spent time pondering the word bold as I drove over the mountain to Charlottesville with my daughter.
In the late afternoon, after picking up everyone from school and before fixing supper, I sat with my art journal and thought about what to do. This time I used a sheet of black paper for the background, instead of painting it.
I placed the lion picture on and the word bold. I thought about what I wanted the page to convey. I thought about the day.
It was an act of boldness to step into the role of mom and not teacher on this field trip. I have been the teacher often, and I felt the pull to take on what was not mine. I chose to engage as parent and focus on my one child. I only lost her in the orchard once!
It was an act of boldness to stand in the kitchen this morning and acknowledge to myself that I needed to care for the girl inside of me. My tendency is to put myself last after caring for everyone else. We needed to bring a packed lunch on this field trip, and Mae wanted a Lunchable. We were planning to stop at the store on the way to school to grab one.
Instead of believing the lie that I would not be hungry at lunch time or that I didn’t need a lunch, I took time to make my favorite comfort food kid lunch, peanut butter and strawberry jam and potato chips. I was glad to have this when 11:30 rolled around!
It is an act of boldness every time I choose to show up in a conversation or and engagement with my family. I have done a lot of hard work surrounding my story to help them understand more of theirs.
These thoughts are what inspired the rest of the page as I hurriedly assembled it.
That is another thing.
Though I knew that I needed to be quick about the work, I kept thinking there needed to be more. There wasn’t enough. It wasn’t right. I stopped myself in the midst of looking for more pictures to ask why what I had thought of and planned out was not good enough.
I stuck with the original idea and got it done.
Here it is.