Words of Years Gone By

I sit at the extreme end of the day on December 29, 2017, not wanting it to end but knowing it must. This is how I am aware of growth. There is too much to do, to learn, to experience, and I do not want to miss any of it.

I have spent much of the day thinking of the words of years gone by. I spent time with my youngest sis pondering and processing over coffee. She knows my choice but has promised to keep it to herself until January 1. So has my luvvvvah, who also knows. These two met almost 30 years ago and have been constants in my life ever since.

Words of years gone by.

I am not sure when I began keeping track of them. The blog tells me that the first was was heal. That was in 2012. Subsequent years were hope, embrace, return, restore, and persist.

Old journals may reveal otherwise, but there is this sense I have that for many years I felt as if I were doing the same year over and over again. I longed for and cried out for growth that just would not come.

I am grateful for growth.

I am incredibly ambivalent about recognizing growth.

So at this day’s end, I sit in the tension. I bask in the joy of witnessing my drummer son creating music and my husband creating in the kitchen. I sit in a space of curiosity and openness to what is coming in 2018 while not wanting to miss a moment of what is left in 2017.

The last of the tucking of children into bed has finally happened and the remaining bit of hangout time with my man is left, so I will sign off for now.

What about you, Dear Reader? What are you anticipating in the new year? I look forward to hearing your word or intention or hope or dream and to sharing mine with you very soon.

2 thoughts on “Words of Years Gone By

  1. Theresa Howard

    Julie, thanks for your inspiration. “Living Loved” was my theme for 2017. “Empowered” reflects my desire for 2018. Empowered to write a book. Empowered to facilitate a group of six women. Empowered to love well.

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    1. Julie Post author

      I love hearing your theme for 2017. I love that it is the year we connected. I love your word for 2018 and am eager to share mine with you. I miss your voice and am eager for life to return to post-holiday “normal” (haha). I look forward with great anticipation to what this year holds for empowered you!

      Reply

Thanks for heart-composting with me! I appreciate your words.

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