Silence and Stirring

As 2016 wound down, I waited for 2017’s word to come. And waited. And wondered.

What will this year’s focus be?

There was no clear-cut text or email message sent forth to reveal like last year. Only silence and stirring.

As thoughts and words and themes emerged, I wrote them down. I journaled and read and re-read and prayed.

God, what do you have for me this year? This is hard! I am so tired.

That is the thing. This year of restore looked and felt nothing like what I thought it would. To restore a piece of wooden furniture, you first strip it down. Using chemicals or sand paper, old finishes are scraped off and removed. Old fabric is torn off of upholstered furniture that is being restored.

Scraping, removing, tearing.

This year has taken me and my heart to this place. The scraping, removing, tearing off part of restoration.

What now?

A list began to emerge. Words. Themes.


grace
stay
trust
no
be
continue


Each of these felt valid and good, yet still not the word I was trying to find.

More waiting. More themes.

Continue resonated deepest. In a practical sense, I am halfway through the certificate program and need to continue the work there. Celebrating a milestone marriage marker next week reminded me to continue on the journey with my spouse, even through the difficult seasons of struggle. Parenting four children, still. Enough said.

continue ~ persist in an activity or process

Synonyms include ongoing, continuous, sustained, persistent, steady, relentless, rolling, uninterrupted, unabating, unremitting, unrelieved, unceasing. All relate to how life feels these days.

Another word, one not on the original list came into focus.

persist ~ continue firmly or obstinately in an opinion or a course of action in spite of difficulty, opposition, or failure

Synonyms include continue, hold, carry on, last, keep on, keep up, remain, linger, stay, endure

I found my word. I knew it would come, and it did.

This is my year to persist.

How about you, Dear Readers? What is your focus this year?

Whatever it is, Happy New Year! May you persist in the work God is calling you to and find joy on this leg of your journey.

Thanks for heart-composting with me! I appreciate your words.