I have a lot of this surfacing in my heart again. Refuse. The noun.
something (such as paper or food waste) that has been thrown away : trash or garbage
Not to be confused with what I am tempted to do. Refuse. The verb.
to indicate unwillingness to do, accept, give, or allow
I am tempted to refuse to deal with the refuse that is cluttering my heart. To just go along and pretend it is not there. For a long time I tried that route.
So here I sit with the refuse and the reminder of why I chose that word in this blog’s tagline.
mixing refuse of the heart . . .
I can tell when I am short to hear and quick to speak. I can tell when contempt flows freely in the face of adversity or conflict. When kindness is lacking and impatience abounding. When I’m feeling too big and too important in realms that are not my responsibility.
I can tell it’s time to slow down and return to the basics of listening to what is going on inside and processing it with kindness and compassion.