Nineteen Views

Nineteen views on June 19. I find that tidy and interesting.

As I struggle and wrestle through a new season of sorting out, removing the Facebook distraction has also removed a source of readers and numbers. This reminder of my identity not being in a statistic or a readership but in Jesus is exactly what I need right now.

Talking with a friend tonight about my choice to deactivate brought a different response from her. In her world Facebook does more good than not. She couldn’t imagine not being connected.

And that’s okay. I bless that in her. For her. She is a beautiful source of encouragement.

My choice is not better for anyone but me. In a season where I feel my choices are limited, this is one I can make. Rather than focusing on all the things that are not, I am trying to focus on things that are.

It is not kind to myself to compare my life to what pops up in my feed. To fuel the discontent that taps me on the shoulder. To feel hopeless and helpless with all that is wrong in the world. To spend time escaping into the blue beyond rather than engaging with the here and now.

There is plenty of real-life time to face these days.

So to the nineteen people or robots who found me today in that real time, thank you.

It takes time to change, rearrange, and figure out. It’s nice to know I’m not alone.

9 thoughts on “Nineteen Views

  1. Stephanie

    I love you. And I understand the readjusting to blog views and my blog is not as big as yours!

    I also get the needing to unplug. My reason was feeling too much like a sponge absorbing everyone’s opinions about everything and letting myself become anxious and unsettled instead of fully present with the people I am with.

    It takes time to find a new groove, but I will always seek you out. <3

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  2. mommypancis Post author

    Thanks, Sis. I know you understand and get it. It is yet another way I am trying to discover what is me and to be okay with that. I love you. Thanks for always finding me.

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  3. Angela

    We all have different needs and I applaud you for making the choice you need. I figured how to “subscribe” so I won’t miss any posts now. 🙂

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  4. Davene Grace

    This right here…

    “It is not kind to myself to compare my life to what pops up in my feed. To fuel the discontent that taps me on the shoulder. To feel hopeless and helpless with all that is wrong in the world. To spend time escaping into the blue beyond rather than engaging with the here and now.”

    That is EXACTLY why I have often considered doing like you’ve done and disconnecting from FB. But then I manage to convince myself that, so far, it’s more good than bad for me. Some days I’m not so sure though…

    Again, I applaud you for your decision. Much love to you, friend!

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    1. Mommypancis Post author

      More good than bad is a good place. It is really such a personal, seasonal decision, as I have since returned in a different season of life. Thank you for your friendship in ALL seasons.

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