Mother of the Groom

How am I the mother of the groom? How did this happen?

Tears streamed down my face and sobs filled my chest as I curled on the bed in the guest bedroom of my soon-to-be daughter-in-law’s childhood home. Her parents had graciously invited our family to stay with them for bridal shower weekend. Here we were.

It was late. I was tired.

We arrived Saturday evening in time for appetizers and dinner. Wine flowed freely into my glass. The large, gracious house was filled to the brim with family and bridesmaids, all converging to celebrate the beautiful bride-to-be at her shower the following day.

Experiencing Dana’s family space made me appreciate even more all of the times she had stayed in ours. There was a clear difference in size, decor, and number of people, yet she always was gracious about our accommodations when she visited us.

I did my best to avoid comparing and conjuring up stories of what everyone thought of us. This time was to celebrate the woman my son loves with his other family who loves him well. I was grateful to have a weekend of shared space together.

The 321 mile drive from Virginia to New Jersey was worth it, especially since all of my children can now tend their own rest area needs. In an act of brilliance my husband handed each passenger $5 at the beginning of the trip for any necessaries they may require along the way.

When we first met Dana, the not-so-little-anymores were 8, 6, 5, and 3. Now they are 15, 13, 12, and 10. They are all as tall as her or taller. I was struck by that reality as we emerged from the cramped mini van and crowded into the backyard. There were all of these big people. They were mine!

Gathering a plate of brisket, corn, and potato salad, I headed to the dining room where bridesmaids were seated around the table. Listening to their laughter and conversation took me to a young place inside. How could I be the mother of the groom when I felt younger than these women surrounding me? Where did time go?

This feeling is what followed me upstairs to bed that evening. It carried me into the space where my daughters were staying, Dana’s childhood room. A collection of Snowbabies lined a high shelf while her American Girl Dolls rested on another. A shelf of books caught my eye as did the bulletin board full of pictures, my son with her in many of them at various stages from ages 17-24.

All this is what primed my heart for the tears that began to flow, first in the presence of my teenage daughter standing beside me in the room, then with my husband comforting me in ours. Both offered kind space for my feelings that felt so big.*

I woke to coffee, quiche, and preparation for celebration. The bridal shower was beautiful. The joy was real. It followed my night of weeping.

I am here.

It happened because of grace.

*Edited to note that the flowing tears were only from me and not from said daughter and husband. They just kindly did not judge.

4 thoughts on “Mother of the Groom

  1. Maurita

    Absolutely beautiful, Julie!!!!! I can picture the scene, the emotions, and the people whom I love so much ♥️ So hard to believe how fast kids grow~these are my kids, too Wishing endless happiness to Caleb and Dana. You will be a fantastic mother-in-love!

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    1. Julie Post author

      Yes! They are most certainly your kids, as well. I am ever-grateful that you were on my mothering team during the season of fullness in raising the bigs while growing the littles. Your love for them was deep. Just yesterday when dropping Kirk off at the EMU basketball courts we took a detour past the house to reminisce about the squirrels and the tree and piano lesson days. Kanah remembered being excited to take lessons to see what the inside of “Miss Maurita’s” house looked like. You are so loved! Thank you for stopping by here today.

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  2. Theresa Howard

    Sounds like a glorious celebration of adding to your family.
    So happy for you! Yes, life is flying by . . . all the more reason
    to savor the moment.

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Thanks for heart-composting with me! I appreciate your words.

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