Today I am thankful for grace. I am thankful to have learned and to continue to learn that it’s not all about me, whatever it is.
Today it was worship team.
I love singing. I love Sundays when I can be on team. This season there are none.
When the last worship team email went out to indicate availability, I knew that I could not be available for any of the Wednesday practices or Sunday morning services or the Thanksgiving or Christmas service, either.
I knew I had to take time off to better care for and more fully engage with my family, because we are running thin these days. Thinner than usual.
I needed to step away from external activities to step towards and love them well.
And that realization was hard.
I missed Community Worship this month to have Steve’s parents for dinner and not be rushing out to the next thing. It was not easy, yet necessary in order to be more fully present in my relationship with them.
This morning as I walked into the church building, I heard lovely singing over the speakers. Moving to our row, I saw and heard my sweet friend Grace on stage singing with the team for the first time. We sing the same part. She has a beautiful voice.
My heart was touched and opened as I began to engage and be fully present in the moment.
The gentle reminder of seasons coming and going, of God’s provision in each, and of freedom to step down and rest was overpowering. The reminder that stepping down allows another to step up, and that through it all God is glorified, was humbling.
I can let it go and breathe and engage and receive grace.
I am grateful.